About Me

Sneha Chatterjee, Voice of Mother FullMoon

Any trigger to look inward is a blessing. We have to learn directly from life. Silently observing people and ourselves, observing peculiar biases, conditioning, reactions and the bubble inside which our egos reside. I realise that whether people complement me, or criticise me, it is not me they are complementing or criticising, they are just praising their own tastes, ideologies, beliefs, likes and biases by doing so. We are all mad. The essential work is, figuring out the ultimate truth.

Not all of us need to be forced to compete and run races we are not interested in running, like a donkey carrying a heap full of expectations on our backs without questioning. I cannot accept the fact that money, fame, reputation, power & prestige is all there is to life. We expect truth to be anthropomorphic, to bend to our liking. The square who has never seen a cube, declares that a cube is an impossibility.

I’ve always wanted to know just why is it that humans resort to violent means even when non violent options are available at any given situation. 

Perhaps, it’s like the law of entropy, most of us  have a natural tendency to make the choices that invariably lead to more chaos, destruction and violence… And that only few of us, at one time, can consciously move away from these tendencies towards compassion, by one’s own effort.

Why can’t we raise our voices against injustice and violence? Why is there this feeling of subservience when we stand before any authority figure? Why do we waste entire lifetimes trying so hard to be merely likeable? Living like beggars, simply trying to please people!

We are all in search of clarity.

If education and books alone were enough to gain wisdom, why did the finest minds become hypnotised by Hitler? Why was Socrates poisoned? Why did slavery continue for centuries? The truth is, you can have all the masters degrees in the world, be super successful, rich and famous, and still be a moron!

I didn’t want to accept the answers given to me by society.

I am not in search for more theory, more hypothesises, opinions, or even so called answers! I am in search for something that would help me SEE reality as it is, without any coloured lenses.

A seeker is like a scientist in a laboratory.The math has to be done by you, nobody can hand it out to you if you do not have the thirst to know the truth, if you don’t ask questions. You can’t just copy the answers from the back of the book and say that you know.

I have been fortunate to study Western and Indian Philosophy, a wonderful new world devoid of intellectual snobbery. It paved the way for finding myself. Memorising theories and jargons are but plastic flowers that people mistake for real knowledge.

It would be disastrous if we stop right at the hypothesis stage collecting second hand knowledge from someone else’s life experiences and paste it in our minds like a poster and worship it for the rest of our lives. Truth is not a ready made garment to be handed out.

I became restless to find answers to the fundamental questions like ‘Who am I?’ finding out the root cause of violence, to find out if we’re just ‘worm food’ when we die.

 This became my primary goal, as I wrote in my journal: “I decide, I declare, that I want to be a glitch, a parasite, a needle standing upright, piercing away every lie, every veil that falls over me.  I’ll shred all my conditioning that prevents me from accessing the truth right now…”

“How do I turn the mind into a needle penetrating through all layers, fabrics of biases conditioning webs and nests of theories that do not corroborate reality but only appeal to my anthropomorphic logic that is approved and accepted by humans of a particular time period?” 
The HOW kept me awake at nights. 

While working in the film industry when I started protesting against the sexual violence many people face, Many ‘shshshed’ me, told me to simply ‘let go move on’. I see the irony when they talk about feminism, non violence and peace. Peace does not come by keeping quiet in the midst of injustice. We are trained since childhood to bow down to evil and injustice, this is slavery!